Monday, 31 December 2012

Marbie ditches alcohol for a month

Hello Homospiens, so I decided I was going to help raise money for the Charity 'Cancer Research UK'.  The fun part is, I won't be drinking for a month (The whole of January 2013) whilst doing so. Hopefully I can get a my local Police station help me out with a breathelizer thing on a daily basis so I can prove to you all I'm doing good. But here's my page where you can help raise funds.

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I'll start my new Year with a a good cause, I intend to give to monthly, will you?
Please help.

'Happy New Year Dudes and Dudettes'

Sunday, 23 December 2012


Don't hate me Homosapiens!!!!!! Marbie has been deployed back into the world of angry people.

Saturday, 22 December 2012

Operation: Marbie Starts Over

Hello Homosapiens.......... As the new Year approaches, I have made a trend for myself to start over. New interests, newish style and lets say curls no more. I'll keep you updated on the mixed and curly front, but for now, remember how I am.
What have you chosen to do for the New Year?

As one life seems to end, another Blossoms

The Orchid flower is one of the most beautiful flowers in my opinion yet can be very temperamental without the right care. Blossoming sometimes for months in my experiences until the flowering season ends. Trimming the ends making the plant look like a tough leafed shrub lacking any beauty as it did once  and caring for the plant as if nothing had changed, is your best bet for it to blossom over and over again.

Being newly diagnosed HIV positive does not mean that life has to end for you, just like the Orchid a new life for you too has started to bare its buds and is striving to blossom, you only need let it.
Speaking to a friend of mine who in 2003 found out about their status and was understandably devastated, they told me once they had found out life to them became more important than what they had thought of it. In their words “Life was just a play it day by day sort of thing. No real meaning, but now there’s so much I can see that I didn’t before.” They said that life before being diagnosed was in fact one big party, never sticking to a job and stumbled from city to city in the UK. Finding out forced them to become in their words again “Grow up” and take charge of their life. That same friend is in a relatively well paid job and has being climbing up the ladder in their industry, bettering themselves for years now, they live alone, party with friends and now is planning on having a child, biologically, so you see life for them has blossomed and continues to.

How does one living with HIV have children? I asked myself that same question, but where there’s a will there also may be a way, the way is treatments. I came across the term ‘Sperm-washing’ and had no clue what that meant, in fact I thought if the male partner was positive then he’d ejaculate in a cup and somehow washing the sperm in a soapy substance. Sperm washing rests on the premise that HIV-infected material is carried primarily in the seminal fluid rather than in the sperm itself. The technique which is used separates sperm from seminal fluid. When the sperm has been washed, there are many ways it can be used. The simplest of these is to perform a technique called intra-uterine insemination (IUI), where the washed sperm is placed directly into the uterus of the female partner. This is done when she is most likely to get pregnant, so around her ovulating cycle. If there are any other fertility problems that may occur there are procedures that you may be familiar with like IVF (In vitro fertilisation) eggs are inseminated with the washed sperm  and ICSI (Intra-cytoplasmic sperm injection) where they directly inject the sperm  into the egg. However if the female is the one which is positive, she would have to carry on taking her treatments as normal or be advised to switch treatments for the health of the baby. I also heard that having a cesarean can lower the risk of transmission to the unborn baby. In all scenarios the viral load of the person would be advised to be undetectable before and would be monitored throughout the pregnancy.

The future gets brighter everyday and as most people walk through life, they find themselves in relationships too. Find another Orchid to make a lovely hybrid is not an easy task, but when you find the right compatible partner life for you can have new blossoms of joy.
Rushing into things is not advised, too many young people have done so and without the right education and protection have received news they did not expect. Take your time and by all means be honest to yourself about what you intend to gain from a partnership. As many good well intentioned people there are in the world there are those that would, I would say be “The snakes in the grass with the venom on their tongues.” I’m not saying keep your status to a minimum, but you don’t particular what to start a journey with someone that understandably you don’t want every Tom, Dick and Sarah knowing about your HIV positive status, because yes it is still an untalked about issue amongst many whom may not be as educated as you, the last thing you want is added stress in your life. On the positive look on your endeavours of find a possible partner, you should be honest with them once you feel you can trust them, get to know them before become physically intimate.
Many social networking sites out there especially amongst the Lesbian, Gay, Bisexual and Transgendered communities (LGBT), social networks allow you the option to disclose your HIV status or not.
Because you are becoming more knowledgeable of the virus and you now know that just because a life you thought you had has ended, another and many are about to begin, remember the most important thing is to take care of yourself, love yourself and through doing this you inturn will be able to protect others and hopefully find your partner you decide you want to have a life with.
Life as you know it, has not ended, it’s just found a beginning to a new path you can enjoy once again.

Wednesday, 12 December 2012

You're human, so they say but inside we're more Animal

Hi Homosapiens.. So couple of months ago I had to get my Husky Kiara spayed, due to the fact that I didn't really want a house full of puppies and nor did I really want her to bleeding all around my house and I was not going to have her wearing sanitary towel and also I don't actually trust any of the locals in the area in which I live  to have vaccinated their dogs. She was becoming of the age where she would've secreted that oh so lovely smell all horny dogs want a bitch to make, thus I had to give her the snip. You see that's how animals operate they give out a scent for the others to know that they're ready to procreate letting all those around them  know that they are ready to fuck. Sometimes animals give off another scent, to ward off other animals as a defence mechanism but the mechanism that I'm talking about is the mechanism of lust, the mechanism that she drives others crazy sexually. (Random thought, the only other  mammal known  other than man to have sex for enjoyment is the Dolphin, I'm sure apes do also as it has been recorded they masturbate in private or in groups, surely that's for sexual reasons I mean why else would they do it?)

Let's talk about pheromones, so I'm assuming that you know what pheromones are if not let me break it down for you, pheromones are a chemical secreted by animals especially in insects and yes  mammals too that influence the behaviour or development of  others of the same species, commonly used to attract the opposite sex however I'm sure it works the other way round also.

There has been huge debate about the existence of human pheromones, whether they work on humans, and how strong they are. I'm going to bat for the team that says pheromones are up on full force, simply for the fact that when one goes out and is feeling quite sexual I find I get a lot of attention and although body language may play a part in my feeling sexual and getting attention, I'm often with my friends laughing and drinking so the body language there is not saying "Come and get me boys" as if I was Nicole Kidman gliding down from centre-stage on a swing in the movie titled 'Moulin Rouge'.
So when one is seeking a partner and they're not wearing any fragrance (because we all know that fragrance/ odour can play a small part in the selection of a concubine or what have you), do they secrete these pheromones? I'm absolutely sure they do, because most chances are when seeking a partner they attract many partners often enough maybe not the partner they want but inevitably they got that attention. I find that when I'm out with my friends after a few drinks I often do feel quite sexual and want some harmless, flirtatious attention, then attention comes, from a greasy looking guy that I wouldn't go for or a girl who has obviously not caught on that I'm gay yet, so you just have to politely say "Sorry not interested"and depending on how I'm feeling and how annoying they're becoming it's a simple, turn my head away and continuing with my night for a proper suitor to come my way.

It is said if a dude and dudette are in a relationship and he is secreting enough pheromones he can have an effect on her menstrual cycle, which would accelerate and increase fertility leading to pregnancy in the likelihood that she is able to conceive. Whilst there is no say how a dudette's pheromones would affect a man, given the reputation of the male species of the homosapien race, it wouldn't matter anyway if they did have any effects, men are so-called more hornier and then females anyway (So not true I know so randy dudettes as I'm sure you do are are one yourself). There has been some studies set out to see if pheromones are sexual orientation based and whilst I can say the gaydar is possibly the best pheromone that domains I'm not too sure it is sexual orientation based, women talking to gay men sometimes assume a man is free, single and most of all not gay, not getting signals from him in the conversation or body language, but his pheromones. So his pheromones obviously are on but are not triggered for her, so I don't believe in the sexual orientational based pheromones, unless of course scientists come up with a reason to say in these circumstances the  human brain is now malfunctioning and scrambling  signals (Which is why we get fag hags).

So are we more alike and more in tune with our animal counterparts? Yes, we can sniff out the perfect partner (or partner for now) by sniffing out the genetics which we do obviously without knowing, just like the heart beating we are unaware what we are doing and when.  In my line of work when I don't know when an item of clothing belongs to someone i.e a child I sniff it, they all have they're own smells, not pheromones but (little piece) proof that we are closer animals than you'd think.

Apparently Dolphins enjoy threesomes also

Pheromone parties fancy that.

Tuesday, 11 December 2012

Monday, 10 December 2012

7 syllables that will change your life

Hey Homosapiens... After listening to some peers of mine drone on about their sweet lives and how good they are, I couldn't help my smile inside when two in particular peers had not such great lives due to breaking up with their partners or wanting to break up. Yes I'm somewhat of a big pessimist at time when I'm not being the full fledge optimist, most people have grown to know. When you hear those 4 syllables that could possible turn into 3 more that you'd might want to hear but only 3 defining ones  come parading your way like a herd of elephants, you heart must stop, right? "I don't love you anymore"
Whilst someone has never broke up with me in such a graceful way, the first and only guy that broke up with me, did it in the harshest of ways. Lets just say, keys left behind, clothes taken, numbers were changed and the birth of a single black male hell bent on revenge was born upon the world.
I vowed from then, if I ever break up with someone it has to be done right, graceful and sympathetic to the other's feelings, because they really might not have seen it coming and I'd hate someone to feel as shitty as I did those many years ago (Plus anyone seeking  non-physical harm revenge on me is in for a long battle).

So are there really signs that a break up is right around the corner and if so should you look out for them? Yes and No. Whilst we all know everyone is different biologically and emotionally, what you do need to look at is how they are socially. I'm not going to bullet point what to look out for, I think real life scenarios are better to pick at.
Everything seems to come down to social factors in one way or another.
This one friend, scared, bored, excited me with months worth of stories and events that had gone on in their lives and as a friend I was there for them, I wouldn't be much of a friend if I wasn't. Events of there partner sexting other people, relocating the Ex-files and attempting to rekindle some burnt out flame, being with other people at social gatherings that they should really have attended (in all sense of being in a relationship) and the constant remarks of being bored with the sex and the relationship. Dudes and Dudettes, I tell you now if a homosapien ever becomes bored of my kitten play, I'm going to have to go back to the ball of string and see where I went wrong.
So I kept telling, this friend, leave. Their response was always that they were in love and that they thought they'd be together forever, life can be a bitch and I know I can, but thinking that way is too optimistic, kind of like hoping, that one fat guy about to jump in the pool is not going to make the biggest splash and wave so you stay there and watch.   Now I see my ways were wrong, I should never had told them to leave, especially if I knew they still wanted to be with this other that was obviously parading their advances on Facebook and had changed relationship status, blocked and unfriended them and lastly became involved with another person with very clear almost nude pictures, they were an item. I should have just let them make up their own minds. Which I did later, but can't help but wonder did I help with the decision.

Now another one of my friends is on the other side of the fence. In the sense they want out, just they don't know how to get out. A very strong willed individual has found themselves trapped like a mouse underneath a cats paw. They have been with their partner for years now and live together. Living together can't be easy, but to want out of a relationship must be worse. Do I think their relationship is perfect? No, did I ever? Yes. But when one comes at me with the thoughts they have and words been said to them I have to wonder 'Why don't you say something?". It seems year in a relationship is harder to get out of than just a few months, bonds have bound, sealed and are harder to detach from.

"You'd be lost without me", "No one else would want you." "No one else would put up with your shit." all what one will say to my friend.

 The many nights being left alone at home and wondering when the other is to return only really seeing them on the weekend and if seeing them is, silently watching TV in each others company, reading books, passing each other in the hallway and short brief conversations just to add some noise into the silent wilderness, well then yeah, they see each other a lot and seem happy. I'm not entirely sure they were ever happy, as the years in description from my friend, has always been like this. I really have no advise for my friend who is bemused by the thought people are now giving them attention. Did it ever occur to them, they were getting attention, they was just too happy to notice it. I love to tell, what I really think, but it's not my place and so many others in this relationship will be affected.

So all I do now is wait for that day when I have to face, those 7 syllabled words, I know it's a pretty morbid way of thinking, but I have come across too many stories that seemed to end happily ever after when in fact, it happened never after.

Stay true to yourself and those around you.

Good riddance to my pet allergy

As Christmas sets itself upon us, year in and out families and lovers seem to always want to get some furry animal as a gift to an other. Now I don't have any qualms with that but I do have to say as many have often said "A pet is for life not just for Christmas, Hanukkah, or a Birthday", yet pet shelters see animals coming in every January, February and so on. One of the top causes for this, allergies to the new family member.

Cheatara Monroe
So some years I adopted a kitten (In December) and she was the most beautiful kitten I've ever had, well probably just, maybe the only I've ever had. Anyway I was allergic to her, terribly allergic to tell her. My eyes would swell up and form a weird like-crustacean over both lids sealing them closed, hard and crusty. Not only did she have an affect on my eyes (I suffer from Asthma) my breathing became clouded by her furry love, when she touched me I developed rashes on the site of where ever her nose or cat-claw had got me. My GP said I'd have to get rid of her. So I decided this had to stop. What I did next is not to everyone's taste and if so should be done with extreme health caution.
 I hated the fact that I could not show her the love that she so wanted to share with me and took matters into my own hands. I purchased some antihistamines coming in oral and eye drop form and began the battle with my allergy to my love. I no longer kept my door closed in fear she may suffocate me in my sleep (I sleep deep, so much so I slept through two Hurricanes) and I allowed her to sleep on my bed or under the covers with me. It took time for my theory of 'Over exposure and the immune system will find a way, a loophole for me to win over the allergy' My methods were of course, idiotic and hazardous to my health, if she didn't suffocate me in my sleep, my asthma surely could have. Did I care? No. (The things we do for love) 

Pythonic Fireayra
10 years on my beautiful girl Cheatara Monroe, is alive and kicking (I'd like to say 'And so am I" but that's apparent), I have no problems with her in regards to my allergy, in fact I did get her a lil sister but they hated each other so she had to leave out of safety for the younger Cosmopolitan Monroe. She is the eldest of three, Pythonic Fireayra (My snake) is 3 years and Kiara Wilhelmina Biitch (my Husky) is 7 months going on 8.

Kiara Wilhelmina Biitch
I'm an extreme lover for animals and as stupid as it is, it's them before me, they're my children and I don't intend in putting them in the system.

So remember a pet is for life not a second in time.

Further readings and websites:
Pet Allergy
Battersea dogs and cats home